I'm glad I have stop crying and tearing over it. Ok not exactly totally stop. Like it's been 2 days since I stop crying during bath and crying myself to sleep, cause those two are the only time when I can cry with ease without anyone knowing. But that doesn't mean I am over it. But I have no idea why I stop. And I start to wonder is it cause I have no more tears or is it cause I have no idea how to cry anymore or I have immune to it!? Many reasons just start forming... But I don't think so leh. Like cause sometime when I watch show or anything that reminds me of you or losing you, I instance teared. It's a mystery. But I am definitely sure I am not over it cause now I have come a stage where I start wondering a lot of things and start thinking of all the things I wanted to ask you and tell you and chat with you. I start wondering...

How are you? 

What are you doing right now?

Hope you are coping well in your filming, projects and assignments

Are you happy? 

I miss you...

Every seconds...

But I don't dare to tell you all this for the time being. And one day if I ever break my promise to you and end it, forgive me. I'm sorry for not being able to keep that one simple promise. I'm sorry for not being strong enough to accept it. But apologizing has become useless after using it for so many times.